
Journal Writing among Older Learners
Personal History of
Journal Writing
Characteristics
of Current Practice
The Benefit of
Journal Writing
Journal Writing
among Older Learners
By E. Michael Brady, Ph.D.
Professor of Adult Education and Senior
Research Fellow
Osher Lifelong Learning Institute
And Harry Z. Sky, D.Div.
Rabbi Emeritus and Senior Consultant
Osher Lifelong Learning Institute
Contact Information: E. Michael Brady, Adult Education Program,
Bailey Hall 400-B,
Telephone: (207) 780-5312
Email:
mbrady@usm.maine.edu
The journal or
diary is a literary genre with a long, albeit unclear, history (note: while
some writers and critics perceive minor technical differences between “journal”
and “diary,” these terms are used interchangeably in this article). In fact, “investigating the history of
personal journal writing is akin to tracing the development of
self-consciousness” (Lowenstein, 1987, p. 87).
The practice of keeping a journal or diary dates at least as far back as
56 C.E. when, in China, journals were written and then archived as historical
documents. In the west, the Fourth
Century bishop and theologian, Augustine of Hippo, is often credited with
having invented the literary genre of autobiography.
A well-documented diary-like form created in tenth-century
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In contrast to its earlier Japanese ancestor the western travel diary is
primarily a narrative emphasizing the factual, i.e., what the traveler has done
and seen. During the European
Renaissance such chronicles were often written by privileged young men taking
continental tours. In his essay “Of
Travel,” Francis Bacon actually instructed these men on writing travel diaries,
encouraging observation of “the courts of princes, the courts of justice, the churches and
monasteries, the walls and fortifications of cities and towns . . . “(Bacon,
1958, pp. 113-114). Thomas Mallon notes
that “the earliest travel diaries were kept less for reasons of sentiment than
geography . . . The ship’s log – like
the household account and the commonplace book – is one of the forms to which
the diary probably owes its murky start”
(Mallon, 1984, pp. 42 – 43).
Evolving much later, but derived from a combination of earlier diary
types, is the personal journal. This
specific genre of writing emphasizes the self, often in relationship with other
people, events, and ideas. Entries were
characterized by immediacy and self-reflection. Samuel Pepys’ diary, written between 1660 –
1669, is a well-known early example.
Among the hallmark’s of Pepys’ diary are optimism, concise character
sketches, love of gossip, and enjoyment of small detail. In nineteenth century French diaries, known as
“journals intime,” the development was toward greater intensity,
self-preoccupation, confession, and passion.
Emerging around the time of the French Revolution, the journal intime
often questioned traditional values, existing literary forms, government, and
even the relationship between the sexes (Lowenstein, p. 93).
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By the twentieth century, journal writing had taken hold as a common
practice among both professional and non-professional writers. In fact, within the past 100 years the
message has become widespread that anybody can write and benefit from keeping a
personal journal, not just those
individuals who happen to write for a living (Cameron, 1998). There is indeed a wide recognition today that
journal writing is a vehicle for self-understanding, self-guidance, expanded
creativity, and spiritual development.
Thomas Mallon, in his popular A
Book of One’s Own: People and Their Diaries (1984), organizes the general
world of diary writers into seven broad and often overlapping groups: chroniclers, travelers, pilgrims, creators,
apologists, confessors, and prisoners.
Three important movements in the twentieth century have played an
especially influential role in nurturing interest in diary writing among the
general population. First, the growth of
the fields of psychology and psychotherapy has encouraged people to look inside
themselves, to analyze and document behaviors and feelings, and to explore
dreams. Many individuals involved with
Jungian and related therapies include journal-based writing as a part of
treatment. Secondly, the Women’s
Movement has encouraged personal writing as a way for women to achieve power
and voice (Heilbrun, 1988; Metzger,
1992, Belenky et. al., 1997). And
thirdly, growth in interest in personal spirituality dating from the 1980’s has
linked personal journal writing to creativity, expansion of consciousness, and
the deepening of spiritual awareness and growth (Santa-Maria, 1983; Solly and
Lloyd, 1989; Baldwin, 1990; Wakefield, 1990, Cameron, 1992; Rainer, 1997).
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Kerka (1996) and Hiemstra (2001) describe various types of journals used
by people participating in adult education programs. Benefits derived from this writing may
include being able to see tangible evidence of mental processes, having a safe
place to practice writing without restrictions of form, enabling the
articulation of connections between new information and what they already know,
and making meaning. Types of diaries
adults use in both formal and informal learning situations include dream logs,
autobiographies, spiritual journals, theory logs, and interactive reading
diaries.
Berman (1991), working in the context of gerontology, carefully examined
the content of personal journals published by four older writers: Florida
Scott-Maxwell, Elizabeth Vining, Alan Olmstead, and May Sarton. The ages of these diarists ranged from 59 to
84. All of these published journals
provide rich descriptions of the interior lives of their authors and each
represents a singular narrative stemming from the authors’ unique life
experiences and personalities. Berman,
however, concluded that common themes exist:
the sense of individuation (a Jungian term designating the development
of the self), the need to structure time in later age and to re-direct one’s
energies toward useful activities,
coming to terms with impending death, and detailed descriptions of the
experience of later age itself.
The purpose of this empirical study was to explore past and current
journal writing practices of older learners with special attention to questions
of the perceived benefits of keeping a journal in later age.
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Fifteen members of an Institute for Learning
in Retirement in
Only three socio-demographic variables were collected in this
study: gender, age, and educational
background. Of the 15 subjects, three
were men. This represents a smaller
ratio of men to women than in the general membership of the Osher Lifelong
Learning Institute (= 28 % male). The
average age of subjects in this sample was 69.2 years - as compared with an
average of 72 years in the general membership of the institute - with a range
of 57 – 81 years. And this was a highly
educated research sample with 13 of the 15
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individuals holding a college degree and
eight also having a graduate degree (seven Master’s Degrees and one Certificate
of Advanced Graduate Study). This
self-selecting sample was even more highly educated than the overall institute
community (Fall 2001 membership survey found 36 % holding bachelors degrees and
32 % graduate degrees). The sample
included people with backgrounds in nursing, teaching (K-12 and college),
ministry, school guidance, business, library science, public administration,
and psychotherapy.
Eight of the 15
subjects began keeping a diary in their youth.
However, only three of these individuals maintained their practice with
a degree of consistency across the years into late age. The more common pattern was to interrupt
writing for long periods of time and occasionally re-enter the practice of maintaining
a diary because of a critical incident occurring in their lives. Such incidents include marriage, the birth of
children, divorce (or separation from another special relationship), one’s own
or a family members’ illness, a significant travel experience, the death of a
parent, and taking a new job.
Although the older writers in this sample looked back nostalgically at
their youthful diary-keeping activity, they were not complimentary about the
quality of their youthful practices and the general pattern was that they chose
to destroy these narratives not long after they were written. People commented about shallow “Dear Diary”
entries that described high school romances and fights with best friends. These were often written in
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the pages of small books that had a
padlock and key. One 65-year old woman
described her early diary-keeping experience this way:
I was raised in a poor
household and things like diaries were
luxuries. But I received one as a birthday or a
Christmas gift.
I wrote about boys . . . and mundane
everyday interactions, you know
with my mother and father and
siblings. I remember one of the things
I used the diary for was to
deal with my anger. I ran to the woods
and I
had a big rock I would
go and sit on and I wrote there . . . I
was
always afraid that my brother
or sister would try to find the diary and
read what I had written.
Three individuals in this sample began keeping a journal in their 20’s
or 30’s. Important events were taking
place in their lives during these years and they wanted to chronicle and
process their feelings about them. One 62-year old woman told about how her
father’s death, which took place when she was in her late 30’s, was a causal
factor for her interest in journal writing. “I didn’t know how to get rid of
all the sorrow and one day I just started writing in a notebook.” This woman then went on to tell the story of
how she learned, upon her father’s death, that he had been a journal
writer. However, her mother refused to
let her read those journals. This
incident further fueled her interest in writing. It was only recently, upon the occasion of
her mother’s death, that she has obtained her father’s journals.
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The remaining four people were late-onset journal writers, beginning
their practice after the age of 50.
Once again, the experience of a critical event (or multiple events) helped
to stimulate the act of journaling. For
one man it was retirement. “I decided in
January of the year I was planning to retire – I was 60 at the time – to keep a
journal of that year as a kind of recording of how I felt, whether things
happened the way I wanted them to . . . “
He is currently 75 years old and has continued to keep a journal. For another individual journal writing was
not so much a planned occasion as a reaction to surprising family news: “What happened was that my daughter confessed
that she was gay and this was a jolt to me. I didn’t know how I felt about it
and I didn’t know how I felt about her and these feelings precipitated my
writing . . . “ This woman went on to say that writing her
feelings in a journal helped her to realize “that she was my child, and that I loved her, and what difference did
it make anyway as long as she was safe and happy . . . That’s basically what I needed – I
had to get from point ‘a’ to point ‘b’
which at times was really rough.”
One of the open-ended
interview questions asked about current journal writing. There were a wide variety of practices among
the 15 subjects with few distinct patterns of behavior. Some people write their journals on paper in
longhand, others use a wordprocessor/computer, and several write both ways
depending on the situation. A number of
older journal writers choose to work early in the morning which allows them
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contemplative time at the start of their
day and is temporally closer to last night’s dreams, thus facilitating their
memory and documentation. Others prefer
to write at night and assess the day they have just experienced. Several subjects primarily use their journal
as a personal chronicle, eg., a mere documenting of what they did, who they met, etc. Others
chronicle very little and prefer, instead, to write mostly interpretive and
reflective material. Several subjects
prefer to keep separate journals for selected experiences: one for dreams, one for family matters, one
for travel. One woman maintains a
separate “Christmas Journal” that she takes out each December and in which are
documented the family gatherings and festive events that take place at that
special time of the year. Other older
writers in this study, however, integrate all of their personal writing into a
single medium.
One pattern of current practice that did emerge was that older journal
writers tend to link journaling with other writing practices. A majority of the subjects (nine) expressed
keen interest in the genres of autobiography and memoir and their regular diary
writing serves as grist for larger narratives about their lives that they
have already written or have plans to
write. Several of these people have taken courses specifically designed to help
write one’s life story or participate as regular members of a writing
group. In addition to these nine, three
subjects expressed an interest in writing poetry. These people often use their journals as a
forum for working out ideas for poems or experimenting with phrasing that may
eventually be used in poems.
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There was an overall expression of satisfaction among older journal
writers about the quality, depth, and truthfulness of their writing now as
compared with earlier years. “My
journals used to be filled with platitudes,” commented one writer, a 66-year
old retired teacher. “Now they are more
truthful.” When we probed about why this
change, this woman responded: “I am more
willing to accept who I am . . . It’s fine to let it all hang out. That doesn’t bother me any longer. I’m not worried about the sordid details, but
I want to get it right. I want to be
able to express things so that somebody else reading {the journal} will really
get a sense of who I was. “
This comment about somebody else reading one’s journal addresses the
important question of audience, an issue we raised as part of the
interview. Two thirds of this research
sample (N = 10) reported being favorably disposed toward sharing their journals
with others or have already done so in fact.
Typically, those with whom journals have been or will be shared are
children and grandchildren, other family members (siblings, nieces and
nephews), and friends. Those subjects who are participating in writing groups
are already working in a culture where the sharing of personal writings is
normative. These people enjoy the
experience of sharing their work, benefit from having others share writing with
them, and in some cases are interested in locating wider audiences. In situations where families are the targeted
audience, the older journal writer typically selects content from their larger
corpus and distributes it on a selected basis.
However, one individual reported that she keeps her journals in volumes
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lined across a bookshelf in a conspicuous
place in her home. Family members who
visit are welcome to select from these diaries at random and read them.
Three persons were ambivalent about whether or not they wanted others to
read their personal writing. A 69-year
old mused about this in the following manner: “I’m having a debate with
myself. Do I let my family read
everything I’ve ever written? Do I burn
them? Do I go through and edit them? I
haven’t yet decided what I’m going to do.”
Another expressed her ambivalence about this issue in this way:
I’ve written so much about my
mother and our relationship in the
negative and prior to her
death I wouldn’t have wanted anybody to
pick up my journals and read
how frustrated I was with her. But now
that she has gone and five
years goes down the road and maybe my
grandchildren should see what
I went through . . . maybe. So I don’t
know the answer yet. But I’m not destroying them.
There were two people in this sample who were clearly against having
others read their journals. One
responded with two words to our question about what she wanted to have happen
to her diaries upon her death: “Burn
them.” Another couched her feelings
humorously by placing them in the context of a famous child’s nighttime prayer:
“Now I lay me down to sleep. I pray the Lord my soul to keep. If I should die before I wake. Throw this journal in the lake!”
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One of the core
questions in this study involved asking older persons about the benefits they
have experienced and - presumably as
current practitioners - continue to
experience from keeping a personal diary
or journal. In most cases this question
occupied more than half the research interview as people became animated about
the implications of their writing and wanted to share details. Essentially our findings were that older
persons who keep a journal experience three general areas of benefit. We have named these coping, the joy of discovery, and the nurturing of voice and spirit.
Coping refers to a number of
functions that assist, in a practical manner, the day to day lives of the
journal writers. One of these functions,
which in fact was specifically named by 13 of the 15 subjects, is
self-therapy. “It’s almost as though my
journal were my psychiatrist,” confided one subject. This 62-year old woman later went on to
describe something of the clarification such therapeutic writing often
brings: “Say I’m feeling anger. If I get in touch with that emotion then I
can start thinking of the pros and cons of the cause of that anger . . . It’s as if all the words were inside the body
and they got all jumbled up and they don’t make any sense to me and I write
them down and I read them and say, ‘Oh, now I see!’“ Another person put it this way: “I am able to work things out on paper.” And another subject related this self-therapy
to the desired outcome of feeling healthy and whole: “I really think after I journal, even though
the content may be something unsettling, there is a sense of well-being. There’s something about sitting
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down and writing down your thoughts – for
me anyway – where I feel more relaxed. I
feel more whole, if that makes sense . . . “
Another way journal writing helps people to cope is to offer a venue for
sorting out issues in relationships.
People talked about clarifying feelings through their writing about
important relationships in their past (eg., with their mother and/or father)
and coming to a greater sense of both awareness and reconciliation. Others shared stories about difficulties they
are currently having with a spouse or child and how their regular practice of
writing helped them to achieve both perspective and insight. And in the case of one elderly man, who keeps
a journal in good part for the purposes of record-keeping, these texts
occasionally serve an adjudicative role:
“I write things down and sometimes, when my wife and I will argue about
something that we thought we did, I’ll look it up and it straightens out family
arguments.”
Two other ways journal writing enables older persons to cope are as a
way of helping to make decisions and as compensation for poor memory (which is
also reflected in the above quote about adjudicating family arguments). Writing down one’s ambivalent thoughts and/or
feelings about a decision and laying the evidence before ones own eyes has long
been a benefit of journal writing.
People in this study have sorted through issues as consequential as the
timing of retirement, moving to another state, and whether or not to seek
reconciliation with a long-forsaken relative by way of writing.
Using a diary to chronicle experiences as an antidote to failing memory
was a frequent theme. Several people
mentioned not wanting to lose precious observations or sayings
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uttered by their grandchildren and
therefore writing became an act of preservation (more developed journal
narratives may at times accompany these captured quotations). One 75-year old man spoke about writing and
memory in the following manner:
I think documenting
helps. The reality of the situation is
that it sort
of implants things in your
mind. Memory is a problem. It’s a problem for
a lot of us. So I write things down. By documenting it fixes
it in my mind and there is
something there that I can locate if
I need it in the future.
Writing as an aid to memory also came up in the context of re-reading
one’s journals. Several people talked about how much they enjoy sitting down
with their old diaries and reviewing events and reflections - even ones that
were painful at the time – and bringing these past experiences to life in the
present. One retired librarian said this
about re-reading old entries: “I found
some really important things that I would have lost had I not written them
down."
The second major category of benefit relates to the joy of discovery that journal writing can and often does
bring. More than half the research
subjects in this sample
(N = 9) made explicit references to this
factor, including numerous comments about journals being milestones-of-a-sort
for measuring one’s own progress in the journey of human development. “I’ve watched my growth, my maturing . . .
and it tells me how far I’ve come in my journey.” Our oldest subject (81-years) effused about
this matter:
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“I
love it! I love it! I love reading {my own journals} because it
makes me reflect and see where I am and how far I’ve come and you learn a lot
about yourself.”
Increasing one’s powers of observation is an important dimension of the
joy of discovery. People spoke with us
about how they pay more attention and see greater detail because of their
practice of writing things down. “I see
a word or I see a beautiful picture in a magazine and I will cut it out and
glue it into my journal and write what it is . . . “ And
later in the interview this woman, who in her late 50’s remains a practicing
psychotherapist, related this beautiful image about her relationship with a
family of cardinals that lives in her yard:
Writing in my journal has
helped me to see the wonders of
walking out one’s front door,
you know, letting the day
greet me and me greet the day
. . . Every single snowstorm
I cannot wait for the morning
because my cardinal is going
to be out in this particular
bush. I mean he’s just . . .
there’s nothing but white and
this cardinal. And I say to him,
“Why can’t you be smart like
your partner? I mean, she’s got a little
brown on her. She doesn’t have to be quite so flamboyant .
. .
I am constantly in awe of the
ordinary.
Sometimes powers of observation grow by way of chronicling someone else’s
experience. One woman told us the story
of spending time with her own mother during
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the older woman’s terminal illness. Experiences and observations were documented
and the daughter came to understand more of “what it is like to be 84 and
dying.” Another subject put it this
way: “I really think journal writing is a
process of discovery, self-discovery or discovery about others.”
A third and final category of benefit derived from keeping a journal is the nurturing of voice and spirit. Part of the achievement of voice is
developing confidence that one has something meaningful to say. Writing regularly can build such
confidence. “Journal writing helps me to
see that I really have some things to say and that I need to get down on paper,”
commented a retired minister. Among
those in this sample who have risked sharing their writing with other people,
there was a sense of gratitude about the feedback they have received. One person, a member of a mixed-generation
writing group which he joined soon after retirement, said this: “I’m really a novice and probably the poorest
writer in the group . . . Now they’re
starting to recognize me and saying, ‘You’re doing well – keep this up; you’re
on the right track.’”
Numerous subjects made explicit reference to the “quiet time” journal
writing requires and how these contemplative moments have helped to nurture
their spiritual lives. “I go back to
that concept of quiet time,” a 68-year subject said. “It’s a way to reflect. I think it is really important in my
spiritual life to just stop whatever I’m doing and spend time thinking about my
life. And this is a way to do it; it’s
also a way to record it so I can go back and see where I’ve been.”
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Writing helps people work through difficulties and transitions, and what
often occurs on the other side of this change is the realization of a new level
of consciousness. One subject called
this process moving from one “spiritual plateau” to another. And she characterized the current place in
her own journey being one of “a great spurt of writing” that has edged her
along into another level of consciousness.
“I am reaching a deeper understanding of myself. One would think that at my age I would be
close to a complete understanding! But I
don’t think we ever reach that.”
A poetic expression of the quest for voice and spirit - and the sense of
freedom that accompanies these - came by
way of a sonnet one of the subjects had been working on and brought with her to
the interview. Here is the opening
quatrain:
Oh, how I yearned
to be a butterfly,
To molt the shell
that bound my eager wings,
Unfurl my mummy
wrappings, touch the sky
And ascend alone
on a wind that sings . . .
In a contemporary
novel about an 81 year World War I veteran living in a nursing home, Jonathan Hull writes these words through the
mouth of his journal-keeping protagonist,
Patrick Delaney: “At a certain
age you realize that living life is only the
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first step, then you’ve got to figure out
what to make of your experiences, which is actually much more critical than the
experiences themselves” (Hull, 2000, p. 282).
The centuries-old practice of writing down ones thoughts and feelings
into a journal or diary can be and often is the very tool elders require to
help make sense of their experiences.
One of the most compelling challenges of aging is the quest to derive significance
from years of lived experience.
Experiences do not themselves have meaning until a person reflects on,
recollects, and interprets them. Writing
has long been and continues to be one of the most useful tools at the disposal
of human beings to do this important reflective and integrative work.
Implications for gerontology practitioners working with older persons
are apparent. Since this research
revealed that both early and late-onset journal writers benefit substantially
from keeping a diary, educators working
with elders in institutes for learning in retirement, public school adult
education, continuing care retirement communities, and elsewhere may serve
these older learners well by encouraging personal writing. A wide range of journal writing options might
be tried. These may include the
heretofore mentioned formats of dream logs, autobiographies, and interactive
reading diaries. Expanded formats for
personal and reflective writing may include memoirs (focusing on a specific
incident in one’s life), creative expressions (poetry, music, visual art), and
letters addressed to loved ones.
Florida Scott-Maxwell’s The
Measure of My Days is one of the most quoted memoirs in the gerontological
literature. In her 84th year,
and in the throes of debilitating illness,
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this talented writer, suffragist, actor, and Jungian analyst took
up what she called her notebook, her
“dear companion,” and set about the
crucial work of reflection and meaning-making through a personal journal. “Age is a desert of time,” Scott-Maxwell
mused, “hours, days, weeks, years perhaps – with little to do. So one has ample time to face everything one
has had, been, done; gather them all in: the things that came from outside, and
those from inside. We have time at last
to make them truly ours” (Scott-Maxwell,
1968, p. 41). The author then went on to make a compelling
argument on behalf of the integration and synthesis such reflective writing
facilitates: “You need only claim the
events of your life to make yourself yours.
When you truly possess all you have been and done, which may take some
time, you are fierce with reality. When
at last age has assembled you together, will it not be easy to let it all go .
. . ?” (p. 42).
Learning to cope with life’s realities (which are frequently
harsh), the joyful discovery of
triumphs and trajectories of growth, and nurturing one’s own voice and spirit
are three fundamental ways the 15 older subjects in this research study benefit
and derive meaning from their practice of journal writing. As one of the interviewees, a 69-year old retired teacher,
commented: “I think journal writing
gives reality and meaning, a sequence somehow . . . When you write you see how events and
conversations are related. I do believe
that we become what we think and what we write.” The compensation accruing to the elderly,
wrote the philosopher Thomas Rentsch, is to
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genuinely become oneself (Rentsch,
1997). Older persons who keep a journal
are enabled along the way to make their claim to this benefit and blessing.
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